That's right I said it, I am 35. I was going to redo 34 but driving home from Virginia on Sunday something clicked in my brain and I realized no matter what spin I put on it I am still 35...and that is okay. I earned that year, even though on a personal level I feel like I have accomplished...well nothing this past year! I know if I really thought about it I probably have but on the surface I feel like it was kind of a flop. I sound so pitiful and depressed don't I? I'm not really. I am just going to look ahead to what this year will bring. Here are a few things I plan on accomplishing this year. This year is going to be my year. My wonderful husband reminded me that I say that every year on my b-day...but I am pretty sure this really is my year...My year to:
*Lose a whole bunch of weight and you won't even know it (because I am so done talking, crying, whining, complaining, dwelling, murmuring, and rationalizing it) until I post a picture of myself and you will all look at my blog and leave me comments saying "You look great!", "How much weight have you lost?", "Great job!". And I will love myself and actually be able to recognize the person I see in the mirror as the person I have been hiding a way under layers of fat for the past almost decade. :) This is all I will say about that subject so don't even mention it...until you see a picture that you can say "WOW!" too...I guess I should post a picture of the "wow..." that is me right now so you will have something to compare it too.
*Not make long lists of things that I WANT to do but don't really have TIME to do or Need to do. I will stop adding more pressure to myself. I did accomplish some of the things on my list that I made the beginning of May. I read my scriptures ever day except one and I just plan forgot that day. I did read a few other books (on my Kindle that ROCKS), not all of which are on the original list but things I just plan wanted to read. I finished my puzzle, but not any of the other projects (that I will do this summer...whenever I decide I have time and really want, rather than feel like I need, to them). I never got up at 5:30am and I am totally okay with that. I am not a morning person and I don't think that is ever going to change. I have done better with exercising-wait I said I wasn't going to talk about it! I can't even remember what else was on the list...Oh yeah Spring cleaning-negative on that, but it will happen because next week I am done working 5 days a week and we are going to get on an AWESOME schedule immediately after school gets out..Okay-rambling! You get it-the list was not completed-surprise, surprise. Moving on...
*Continue to strengthen my testimony. I will serve more. I will set a better example to those around me. I will remember who I am-"at all times, in all things, and in all places". I will stop neglecting my spiritual needs.
* Take time for me.
*Follow through rather than giving up in all areas of my life that this applies to.
*Be less grumpy. I will not take my stress out on my family. I will try not to stress about things out of my control.
*Do better at keeping in touch and reach out and reconnect with people that have touched my life for the better.
*Remember what is important and stop worrying about things that aren't.
*Be a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, etc....
*Doing other things that I see I need to do as the year goes on.
That list is much better than the one I did the beginning of May. I guess I am already older and wiser. 35 may not be so bad after all....
